A videotaped police interview played before a Newmarket, Ont. courtroom for the second day during the trial of Daniel Sylvester for the killing of Alicia Ross.
On the tape Sylvester shows his emotional side, crying after a detective asked what he would say to Ross' family
"I had no right to take her daughter's life," he said, referring to the victim's mother Sharon Fortis.
"There is nothing I could do to make up for it. I wish it never happened. Words can't express what it is going to be like for her family," Sylvester said on the video tape.
Fortis kept her head down as the tape played, wiping away tears.
The Crown alleges that Sylvester beat the 25-year-old Markham, Ont. woman to death in 2005. Investigators say it happened when the two exchanged heated words in the pathway between their homes on an August night that year.
In the video, Sylvester said he has suffered from depression and anxiety and looked for treatment from 15 different therapists over a period of years.
He went on to say that at one point Sylvester considered taking his own life.
"I said I was going to kill myself, blow my head off," Sylvester is heard saying on the video tape.
The accused said he took medications to treat his depression and anxiety, including Prozac and Paxil. Sylvester says he took the drugs for three years but stopped the treatments because he did not like the side effects.
The trial will resume next week.
With a report from CTV's John Musselman